When will the world stop spinning?
Give me a chance to heal.
I'm still recovering from the last time you hurt me.
Life hits me hard
It hits me in my chest.
In my heart.
Give me a damn break!
I've taken enough
He's taken enough.
We've taken enough of these hardballs
We've proved we're strong.
We're strong enough to handle life.
You make me hurt.
You let me heal
You make me hurt harder
I prove my strength once more.
When will you learn?
I'm too good for you
He's too good for you
We're too good for you
We're too good for life.
We'll make it through once more.
We'll make you angry that we've won again.
You'll never break me
Lay.
Relax.
in my bed.
with me.
We're only teens..
we're allowed to do stupid things
As long as you don't tell.
Blame it on the age
Blame it on the rage
Just don't blame me
We're stupid teens
we're supposed to do stupid things
You're sound asleep
You left me awake
with nothing
But your quiet body
At first you hesitate
Then your eyes roll in the back of your head.
After you come to realization
You beg me to stop.
Come on, babe
You know you like it.
At least pretend.
We're only teens..
we're allowed to do stupid things
The next morning
No words are conversed
We pretend nothing happened
But we both know in our hearts
My heart is bleeding
Outside of my chest, my eyes, my ears, my skull
How do you make me feel like this?
Why does this happen to me
You always fall for the wrong girls
I'M RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU
I'M RIGHT HERE
...I'm right here...
Tell me you're happy
Even though it'll break me
Because you're with her
Instead of where you should be
With me.
I wont hurt you
Like every girl you've known
I'll listen to everything you have to say
I always do
even if it's about "The one"
...about her.
You're the one for me
I wish I could tell you.
You'll just look at me
And see me as a girl
Not someone you love
Not the one.
....not her.
I'l
When you get back
I won't be here
'Cuz like I said before
My hearts filled with fear
Fear of hurt
Fear of pain
But all of this
You sustain
I can't stand
This life I live
From what I've heard
Love's all I give
I need someone
To love me back
In your mind
This might sound whack
But before I go
I have one last thing to tell
Let me slit my wrists
And I'll see you in hell.
Everytime I think of you
I get butterflies
I remember how safe I am
When I look into your eyes
Everytime I think of you
It makes me want to scream
I remember how you broke my heart
It still come back and haunts me
Everytime I think of you
It makes me want to cry
I remember picking up the razor blade
I remember wanting to die.
I remember getting through it all
And finding someone new
But hopefully this person
Won't be anything like you.
I'm trying to be happy
You're not letting me do shit
You're a stupid shitty mother
And a fuckin' idiot.
You won't let me go anywhere
Or do anything with a friend
I'm really happy to tell you
This is finally the end
I've cut myself many times
All because of you
I hope you start crying
Once you realize I'm through
I hope you regret
Everything you've ever done
We would always fight
And you always fuckin' won!
I hope you kill yourself
Because nobody can bear you
Yes I'm actually saying this Mom,
I truly fucking hate you!
I hate it when my friends say
"Dude, your mom is so cool."
You don't know shit about my life
So for now
Why do you always think
you know exactly how I feel
If you were in my shoes
Wake up!! This shit's for real!
Stop assuming things
You don't know anything about
Once you're in my shoes
Oh lookie here, there's no way out!
You ask me questions
I know the answers, you won't get it.
Just go away!
Stop asking these mind games, quit it!
You're not in my high school
You're not in my generation
You don't know anything about my music
you don't know anything about 'player-hation'
If only you could understand
What it's like to be in my shoes
Pretend the world is one big game
And guess what happens, you always lose.
The blade glistens like the moon
I know that I will see you soon
The blade glistens like a knife
I know I'm going to take my life
When the blade glistens like the water
I'll start to feel my body get hotter
The blade glistens and I see my eye
I know that I've been living a lie.
The blade glistens from the light
I know this is my final night.
The blade glistens like the ocean
I feel like I drank a deadly potion
When the blade glistens with my blood
I know that I have finally won
I see the blood hit the floor
Now I'll understand I can't take anymore
When you look at the blade
And you see it glisten like a stream
Only then will
I just want to get the fuck out of here
Leave everyone and everything behind me
I don't know where I'll go but I don't care
At least I'll get away from crying
I don't want to suffer from depression anymore
I don't want all this hurt and pain
If I don't get away i'll fucking kill myself
You'll see them carry my dead body in the rain
You took away the only night
That I could ever dream
But now I'm suffering from the razor
And the only thing you hear is my scream.
The ugly pain
Is filling my heart
The grotesque feeling
Of falling apart
The thought of death
Rushes through my head
I will always think
I'd be better off dead
I don't like living
My life like it is
The feeling of wanting to die all the time
Makes me (obviously) hate wanting to live
The more I think about it
The more it's true
The more I hate life
The more I need you
I need somebody to confide in
Somebody to always be there
If I don't I feel the need
To not be around when you come here
I would be gone if it weren't for you
I would be lying on the floor dead
I would have a gun laying next to me
With a bullet in my head
It's overwhelming
The pain that I have....let me explain
It won't leave you alone
You're the first on its list
You can't get away from it
It's like it's stalking you
Trying to make your life miserable on purpose
Not caring about your feelings
It doesn't care how much you can take
It doesn't have a heart
You can't do anything to stop it
It won't hold back its power
It takes over your body
And hurts it.
It wants you to live horribly
It wants you to hurt yourself
It wants you to be miserable
It wants to have control.
The only thing you can do
Is watch your body give up
As the pain captures your soul
And steals it forever
Th
Lay.
Relax.
in my bed.
with me.
We're only teens..
we're allowed to do stupid things
As long as you don't tell.
Blame it on the age
Blame it on the rage
Just don't blame me
We're stupid teens
we're supposed to do stupid things
You're sound asleep
You left me awake
with nothing
But your quiet body
At first you hesitate
Then your eyes roll in the back of your head.
After you come to realization
You beg me to stop.
Come on, babe
You know you like it.
At least pretend.
We're only teens..
we're allowed to do stupid things
The next morning
No words are conversed
We pretend nothing happened
But we both know in our hearts