captsnow

Lay. Relax. in my bed. with me. We're only teens.. we're allowed to do stupid things As long as you don't tell. Blame it on the age Blame it on the rage Just don't blame me We're stupid teens we're supposed to do stupid things You're sound asleep You left me awake with nothing But your quiet body At first you hesitate Then your eyes roll in the back of your head. After you come to realization You beg me to stop. Come on, babe You know you like it. At least pretend. We're only teens.. we're allowed to do stupid things The next morning No words are conversed We pretend nothing happened But we both know in our hearts

My heart is bleeding Outside of my chest, my eyes, my ears, my skull How do you make me feel like this? Why does this happen to me You always fall for the wrong girls I'M RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU I'M RIGHT HERE ...I'm right here... Tell me you're happy Even though it'll break me Because you're with her Instead of where you should be With me. I wont hurt you Like every girl you've known I'll listen to everything you have to say I always do even if it's about "The one" ...about her. You're the one for me I wish I could tell you. You'll just look at me And see me as a girl Not someone you love Not the one. ....not her. I'l

When you get back I won't be here 'Cuz like I said before My hearts filled with fear Fear of hurt Fear of pain But all of this You sustain I can't stand This life I live From what I've heard Love's all I give I need someone To love me back In your mind This might sound whack But before I go I have one last thing to tell Let me slit my wrists And I'll see you in hell.

Everytime I think of you I get butterflies I remember how safe I am When I look into your eyes Everytime I think of you It makes me want to scream I remember how you broke my heart It still come back and haunts me Everytime I think of you It makes me want to cry I remember picking up the razor blade I remember wanting to die. I remember getting through it all And finding someone new But hopefully this person Won't be anything like you.

I'm trying to be happy You're not letting me do shit You're a stupid shitty mother And a fuckin' idiot. You won't let me go anywhere Or do anything with a friend I'm really happy to tell you This is finally the end I've cut myself many times All because of you I hope you start crying Once you realize I'm through I hope you regret Everything you've ever done We would always fight And you always fuckin' won! I hope you kill yourself Because nobody can bear you Yes I'm actually saying this Mom, I truly fucking hate you! I hate it when my friends say "Dude, your mom is so cool." You don't know shit about my life So for now

Why do you always think you know exactly how I feel If you were in my shoes Wake up!! This shit's for real! Stop assuming things You don't know anything about Once you're in my shoes Oh lookie here, there's no way out! You ask me questions I know the answers, you won't get it. Just go away! Stop asking these mind games, quit it! You're not in my high school You're not in my generation You don't know anything about my music you don't know anything about 'player-hation' If only you could understand What it's like to be in my shoes Pretend the world is one big game And guess what happens, you always lose.

The blade glistens like the moon I know that I will see you soon The blade glistens like a knife I know I'm going to take my life When the blade glistens like the water I'll start to feel my body get hotter The blade glistens and I see my eye I know that I've been living a lie. The blade glistens from the light I know this is my final night. The blade glistens like the ocean I feel like I drank a deadly potion When the blade glistens with my blood I know that I have finally won I see the blood hit the floor Now I'll understand I can't take anymore When you look at the blade And you see it glisten like a stream Only then will

I just want to get the fuck out of here Leave everyone and everything behind me I don't know where I'll go but I don't care At least I'll get away from crying I don't want to suffer from depression anymore I don't want all this hurt and pain If I don't get away i'll fucking kill myself You'll see them carry my dead body in the rain You took away the only night That I could ever dream But now I'm suffering from the razor And the only thing you hear is my scream.

The ugly pain Is filling my heart The grotesque feeling Of falling apart The thought of death Rushes through my head I will always think I'd be better off dead I don't like living My life like it is The feeling of wanting to die all the time Makes me (obviously) hate wanting to live The more I think about it The more it's true The more I hate life The more I need you I need somebody to confide in Somebody to always be there If I don't I feel the need To not be around when you come here I would be gone if it weren't for you I would be lying on the floor dead I would have a gun laying next to me With a bullet in my head

It's overwhelming The pain that I have....let me explain It won't leave you alone You're the first on its list You can't get away from it It's like it's stalking you Trying to make your life miserable on purpose Not caring about your feelings It doesn't care how much you can take It doesn't have a heart You can't do anything to stop it It won't hold back its power It takes over your body And hurts it. It wants you to live horribly It wants you to hurt yourself It wants you to be miserable It wants to have control. The only thing you can do Is watch your body give up As the pain captures your soul And steals it forever Th